dear 2010, fuck you.

dear 2010,

i'm just gonna keep it real. i hate you. you ain't shit. you've taken my job from me, my money, my surburban apartment, my man/best friend, my grandmother, my peace of mind, my motivation! and in about a week and a half, you even gon' take my 20s from me! i mean damn. why have you been so cruel? what's the beef? i can remember late in 2009 when i was looking forward to seeing you. i was ready to welcome you with all my heart and even participated in quoting the cheesy phrase "ready to get it in, in 2010" (don't judge me). then you got here, and fucked me allllll up.
you started out real cool though! i can remember the day you came. me and my man (the one you took from me) were at church, and were so happy to see you! we sang, danced, clapped, and prayed for your arrival. we thanked you for coming. we had such high hopes for you. I had such high hopes for you. then you got comfortable. you brought HELL on my job. then came the rumors of the lay-off. then the rumors became TRUE! what the hell??? what you expect me to do LAID-OFF?? wow. okay, so of course that's gonna affect my money. which means i have to leave the apartment that i have grown to love, and go somewhere "cheaper". had to think quick. then came the problems with me and him. him. HE was supposed to be my husband (per me). but shit happens and shit happened. damn. he was my best friend. i still miss him.
so i find a place, i move, i'm unpacking, i'm starting to have a little bit of fun, meet some cool people, hang out with my fam....then the phone call comes. "something horrible has happened. it's grandma......" no. you're kidding me. not grandma. MY GRANDMA. NO. this has to be a nightmare. HAS TO BE. oh my God. not my grandma.
i haven't been the same since. everything stopped. except my mind. it races. constantly. my stress level? let's not even GO there. i can't feel anything. or i feel EVERYTHING. you have officially fucked me up, 2010. i'm just ready for your ass to go. you have overstayed your welcome and i'm completely over you. i can't wait for the day you go away and never ever come back.

but wait.

there are some things i should thank you for. i'd be remiss not to thank you for each day that passes because that means each day i get to wake up and see you getting closer to being gone. also, i should thank you for the people you have brought into my life and the for the people who have STAYED in my life during the bullshit you've brought me to. my people have been my rock. them, and God. but that goes without saying. thank you for introducing me to my new lovers this year. and thank you for the lovers who have been there since day one. i sincerely thank you for all of them. i even thank you for the people who i "thought" were there but ultimately decided to leave for one reason or another...keeps me on my toes and makes me appreciate my Real lovers more and more every day. thank you for allowing me to remain cool, calm, and collected on the outside. even though you got me lookin and feelin like shit on the inside, one would never know it just by looking at me.
you can't take everything muthafucka.

fuck you 2010.

fuck you
and
thank you.

sincerely,
me.