Dear Future Husband, I Love My Ex.

The majority of us can agree that most of the feelings that we have regarding our exes aren't full of roses and sunshine. Most of us can probably admit that though we've taken away various lessons from our dealings with our exes, it wouldn't have been the end of the world if our paths would have NEVER crossed. Then there's that onnnnnne ex that in the back of your mind, you're thinking, ”wait, why is he my EX???? we should (still) be together!!”....or is that just me? :| 

At any rate, I happen to Love my ex- with a capital ”L”. 

However, I can FINALLY admit that the type of Love that I have for him is no longer the romantic love that I had for him while he and I were together, as well as, for like a year (or more) after we split. The type of love that I have for him now is a genuine love, based on true friendship. He gets me. He helps me. He listens to me and provides suggestions, opinions, and feedback. He asks about my family. He laughs at my corny jokes. He is phenomenal and one of my closest friends. I wondered and prayed and hoped and wished for a looooooong time that he and I could once again have what we once had a few years ago, but it never got back to that. However, I realize that what we have now is even stronger! Again- nothing romantic. Since the split, we've seen each other multiple times. Actually, we've seen each other EVERY time he's come home to visit, and never have we Ever done the "do", though we defffffffinitely had opportunities to do it if we wanted it to go down. 
The thing, though, is that the respect and Love that we have for each other as FRIENDS supersedes any other type of relationship that we once shared. 

 So, with that said- dear future husband? Listen. I need you to understand something: 
 I Love my Ex. And I always will. 

 xo.

Dating 101

I have questions.

I need answers.

first off, how does dating REALLY work? is there more than one way to do it? is there a "right" way or a "wrong" way? what are the "no-no's" and what are the "must-do's"?

for real!

a running joke that i have with some of my gfs is that i don't have a problem GETTIN 'em; it's KEEPIN 'em that's the problem. 

-______-

so how does one go from gettin 'em TO keepin 'em? ya'll- let me know SOMEthin, because apparently, yours truly has been following the wrong directions, and i'm lost than a mofo.

let me be clear, i realize that there are some SELF things that has caused the demise of some of my past potential relationships. there's no denying that. but i also know that i know what i want, i know what i will and what i won't tolerate, and i know what i expect from a person that calls themselves being interested in me. 

with that being said:

• is there a such thing as being "too picky"?
• is it unreasonable for me to lose interest if all of my needs aren't being met? (or MOST of them, at least?)
• what is a realistic time frame for one to know whether or not it's going anywhere? IS there a realistic time frame?
• how important is it to make your "expectations" (for lack of a better word), known, and/or find out what theirs are? i.e. if you know you're looking for something long-term, is there an appropriate time to make that known? is there an appropriate time to then ask what theirs are? or is that putting you at risk of scaring the other person off?

bottom line: i'm not here to waste my time, or anyone else's. i'm not here for anyone to waste my time either. however, i realize that patience is a virtue, and have worked diligently on being patient with others, and especially with myself. 

i gotta whooooooooooooooole lotta love to give, but i'm not trying to give it to the wrong person (again).

talk to me! 

It's Been a Long Time, I Shouldn'tna Left You...

HI.

It's been a while. More like 2 years and 12 days to be exact. 

Something like that. 

Anyway, there are SO many reasons why I left for so long; reasons that do not necessarily need to be addressed- right now. 

But I'm back now, and I'm moving Forward. Onward. Upward.

So with that said:

What's been going on? 

What's up? 

How're things? 

If I were being asked these questions, this is how I'd answer:

1. Nothing and Everything has been going on- at the same damn time.
2. The sky and the ceiling- how YOU feeling?! Ha.
3. Things are good. As a matter of fact, things are GREAT. Everything is not ALL right, but everything is allllriiiiiight. I'm happier now than I've been in QUITE some time, and I look forward for things to continue to go well. I look forward to positive changes being made in EVERY aspect of my life, and I look forward to the journey. I also look forward to you coming along for the journey, (if you're interested!;)).

Over the past two years, I experienced a lot and I learned a lot. I've been tested like a MUHFUCKA, but I've also been BLESSED beyond belief. 

So, sure there are things that I can sit here and complain about, but what good would that do?? I'd rather focus on living, and LOVING, and being LOVED, and being a blessing, and being blessed, and eating, and drAnking, and everything else in between. I'm not saying I won't have my "moments"- of course I will! 

But I'm gon' try to make those "moments" few and far between if I can help it!

I'm glad to be scribblin again, and hopefully, ya'll will enjoy getting back to reading my scribbles! :) 

Holler!